I felt compelled to do a follow-up to my “Failing My Way to the Top” post. Many of you expressed concern in emails, on Facebook, and in real life that I appeared to be depressed and contemplating giving up writing. I appreciate your pats on the back and “hang in there’s.” It is truly very touching to know that you care that much. I am not, nor will I ever stop writing, or publishing for that matter. Rereading the post, I could see how you might get that idea. When I talked about not trying anymore, I was referring to my attempts to get one of the mainstream publishers to publish the Oz Chronicles or any of the other books I’ve written.
It doesn’t just entail my agent sending out queries and fielding questions about me, my books, and my platform. I’ve received some pretty in-depth notes from publishers on changes they would like to see. In the past year and a half, I believe I’ve done 4 pretty significant rewrites. And I have nothing to show for it. In addition, it has forced me to delay the release of Lost Days; Book Four of the Oz Chronicles.
So, am I depressed? No. Not in the least. Am I frustrated? Absolutely. Am I ready to give up on mainstream publisher? Nope. But that doesn’t mean I won’t stop whining and moaning and venting. I also write posts like “failing my way to the top,” in an effort to share my experience with other writers. I want this blog to be somewhat of a teaching tool for those out there chasing the same dream I am. I want them to know that it’s tough and maddening and confusing and worth every second of it. For that reason, there will be times that my posts on this subject will be uncomfortably candid. I want them to see the warts and all.
And to my agent, don’t worry. I’m still up for the rewrites and playing the game. Don’t get nervous. If it’s the last thing I do, I will get you your payday!