Lessons from my mother

V.J. Ridley looking like a movie star

Live small and dream big.  That’s what my mother taught me.  She didn’t voice it exactly that way.  There was never a moment where she sat down and said, “Son, this is the secret to a happy life.”  She planted the concept in my head over time.  I never even realized she was doing it. Little by little she would offer me nuggets of information that would drive me in that direction.  She hid her message so skillfully that I never even saw it coming.

By living small, I mean to live in the moment.  Pay attention to what’s happening in your life.  Church was important to her, but she never forced the ritual of attending services every Sunday down my throat.  She preferred that my interest in God stem from a natural curiosity.  She wanted me to approach it intellectually.  She wanted me to discover what she knew instinctively.  God is as present in the small seemingly meaningless moments as He is in the big, life changing moments.  When you hold a door open for someone, God is in that moment.  When you let someone in line ahead of you because they only have one item and you have a cart full of groceries, God is in that moment.  When you do something for someone without being asked, God is in that moment.  God is never separate from us.  God is the goodness that we do and receive.  If you only look for God in the big moments or on Sundays, you’re missing the point of God.  You don’t even have to call this presence God or believe in God.  Call it love or kindness or compassion or whatever.  It/He/She lives in that act of thoughtfulness. 

It was my mother who first discovered that I wanted to be a writer.  I was a jock in high school, and I was terrified to let people know that I wanted to write for a living someday because I was a terrible student. I would write short stories and poetry and hide them away deep in my closet as if they were drugs and I would be publicly shamed if anyone ever saw them.  My mother found a box of my stories when I was a teenager and shared them with my father without telling me.  She finally came to me after a couple of days to let me know that she had found them.  She gushed. She couldn’t have been prouder and she made a point to tell me that my father felt the same way.  She encouraged me to write more and enter contests and share my stories with more people.  I didn’t think I was smart enough to be taken seriously as a writer, and here my mother was telling me I could make a living doing it.  She told me I could be whatever I wanted to be.  Dream big.

This woman who taught me to live this way, this wonderfully kind and thoughtful woman, this gorgeous and loving woman passed away yesterday.  She struggled with pain and illness the last few years of her life and grew increasingly frail over the months.  These last few weeks, she hung on to her remaining time on this planet with fierce determination even though she told us she was ready to go.  When we gave her our permission to go, she explained she couldn’t because her little children needed her.  True to form, she observed the moment and gave greater consideration to others than herself even on her deathbed.   

I love you, Mom.

Update and Another Song for The Man Who Saved Two Notch

Posts have been few and far between the last week here for a variety of reasons.  Primarily, I am finishing up the first edit and rewrite of my new novel The Man Who Saved Two Notch, and I figured since I had the story in front me, I’d go head and write the screenplay, too.  I’ve never successfully adapted one of my books to screenplay.  I’ve written 12 screenplays (none produced, one semi-finalist in the Nicholl Fellowships), but adapting one of my novels to screenplay hasn’t come easy to me.  So far, I’ve had a easier time of it with The Man Who Saved Two Notch.

I’d also like to create a graphic novel and video game for the book, but I have no idea where to start with those particular formats. If anyone has any ideas, email me or Facebook me or whatever it is you do in this online social networking world.   I’ll leave you with another song from my The Man Who Saved Two Notch virtual soundtrack (Meaning, there is no official soundtrack.  This is the music that reminds me of the book).

This is Jeffrey Foucault singing John Prine’s classic That’s the Way the World Goes Round.

My dad talks about growing up in Colorado on a Ranch

Recorded some family history with my parents a few months ago.  Here’s my dad talking about the time he lived on a ranch in Colorado when he was a kid.  As he put it, his father had delusions of becoming an alfalfa farmer.  My grandfather was an Optometrist by trade.  Not sure where the itch for farming came from.

Another Two Notch Song – Rye Whiskey

Thanks to Bailey for turning me onto the Punch Brothers.  I looked them up on Youtube and found the song Rye Whiskey, and I’m adding it to The Man Who Saved Two Notch virtual sound track.  Why?  Because rye whiskey plays a fairly prominent role in the story.

The Sequel to When Harry Met Sally is coming to theaters near you soon!

It’s finally here.  The sequel to the movie that redefined relationships between men and women.  Billy Crystal is back as Harry, and Helen Mirren plays the role of his new love/friend interest, Sharon.  Ladies and gentleman, I give you the sequel to When Harry Met Sally!  (Rated R for violence and language – That’s right, you heard me.)